Thanksgiving 2018

Thanksgiving was a blast this year and it was just the boys and I traveling to my grandmothers house so there was a little stress with getting them ready at times, especially the feisty three year old that I love with all my heart but dang that boy is a beast.

All the family was their minus my Auntie and Uncle.  My Uncle is recovering from some health problems so it was sad we couldn’t see them but totally understandable.  The children had fun playing with their cousins and they burnt each other out which was great for the drive home and bed time.  All my uncles and cousins like other years prior gather into the living room to watch the games no matter what games are on.  They either watch golf (no thanks), college basketball (no thanks), college football (no thanks), or NFL football (yes please).  All my Aunties and girl cousins gather in the kitchen and around the table and lots of gossip happens their about people in their community.  My family (mom and brother) live in a different city, everyone else lives in the same city.  So sometimes the conversation is hard to fellow but still nice chatting and catching up with them.

Family time in general is so important to me because you never know when someones time is up or how much time you have left with them.

God Bless

~Angela

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Just Scared

As I enter 30 weeks pregnant and start getting her room ready and thinking off the stuff we need to get done I am finding myself becoming scared.  I know we will get all the things done on the never ending “to-do list” regarding her room but it’s all the “what ifs” or “how am I going to” that are scaring me shitless.  I know I can manage three kids but I’m not sure I can keep up with the oldest one’s school activities, keep the middle child happy and challenged, work 40 hours a week, house work, and possibly breastfeed her.  Oh an keeping my marriage solid

To me that all sounds so dam stressful and I know stress brings down supply and creates all around unhappy people.  I want to be as stress free as I can be but lets be honest I don’t think that will happen.  I’m scared that I will not have enough time with my baby girl because I will be working so much and she will be “raised” by someone else at daycare that isn’t me, which truly makes me sad.  My ultimate dream would be to be a stay at home mom again and work on some of my dreams that I have and hopefully turn them into making extra income.  I am currently creating some product to sell at a local craft/painting store in town but I’m unsure if my inventory you could say will sell or not so I can’t rely on that has a strong/consistent income.  I have also been signed up as a Beach Body Coach since May and LOVED it but shortly after I found out I was pregnant and basically could function at all due to horrible morning sickness that I have never experienced before with my boys.  With that being said I really didn’t get to build my coaching business like I had hoped I would but I know I can start again once baby is born, all is good, and I’m cleared.  BUT that takes time too and extra time to squeeze in the learning and the building my brand and I don’t know about you but sleep sounds very important in the near future and I have a feeling its going to be far and few in between.

Which makes me think about my current sleeping “schedule”, my oldest son gets on the bus at 6:40 am every morning so sadly I have to wake him up at 6 am or a little before and I get up at 5 am so I can somewhat function and get myself together.  After he is on the bus myself and sometimes my middle son leave to take on our 40 minute commute to work.  Which isn’t far but far enough for me and thinking about having to travel with a baby in the future on shitty roads makes me even more scared and nervous.

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I’m trying to stay as positive as I can be but sometimes I need to think about the future to keep myself together but I find it makes me cry more then helps me.  The only thing I’m really excited about is seeing her and being able to hold her!

God Bless

~Angela

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All Moved In

Man it feel great to be back and hammering out some blog posts.  I have missed this so much and know this is something I need to do regularly to help keep me balanced.  Now that the house is pretty much unpacked for the most part and as we keep adjusting to new changes and this lifestyle I will hopefully continue to have extra time to write.  Thank you for being so patient.

The last two months have been slightly rough with all the unpacking, growing a baby, and the first day of school happening.  I am proud to say we survived and are going strong in November.  There are no longer boxes laying around the entire house minus a few in the babies room and the upstairs bathroom that needs some work.  I honestly can not wait tell that bathroom is completed and I don’t have to walk all the way down stairs at 9 months prego to pee or take a toddler potty.

This house is soooo beautiful and full of so much family history which I love but dang its SO BIG and hard to keep up with especially with two boys running around all over with a poop ton of toys.  We do have a play however; and the younger son will sit an play for hours in their as long as he knows your near by.  My older son is still adjusting to having a play room and knowing that we are close.  He has been used to playing in the same room that the hubs or I are in.  I have faith he will get their and will be able to play in their without anyone needing to be in the same or next door.

Its been a hard adjustment to have neighbors that are a few miles away on both sides of the house and in between us are fields of corn or farms but nice at the same time.  In town we had neighbors that were so close I knew when they left for work and returned from work, I know that sounds creepy but its true.   You end up picking up on your neighbors schedules in a small town and if you have lived their for a good length of time like we did, almost ten years.  I really enjoy the privacy and we don’t have to worry about the kids so much being outside by their self while you run to the rest room or grab someone a snack.  We are no longer right smack next to a road or a busy road at that.  They have five archers to play with and they are in HEAVEN, there has been less fighting too which is awesome sauce.

God Bless

~Angela

 

 

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Affirmations I LOVE

Hello Everyone,

I wanted to share my FAVORITE affirmations that are on my Pinterest board.  I would read them often on my road to recovery after I was released from the inpatient hospital and still continue to read this affirmations today.  They have helped me then and still help me today and are good reminders because I sometimes get sucked back into negative thinking and body talk.  Enjoy and God Bless!!

~Angela

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Packing it up

I have moved twice in my life, once to an apartment with little to nothing to move minus my clothing, and the move to our first home with a little more then clothing.  Nine years later we are moving for the third time and hopefully the last time to the family farm.  With this move we have way more items, stuff, some junk, and two children that have a TON of toys each.

Lets talk about packing with children, its sooo hard.  Every time I pack some of their stuff its like Christmas for them and they want to pull out all the toys that they haven’t played with for months but because its in a different place so its new again.  So, all that was packed became unpacked and all over the floor that was once cleaned but no longer.

Another stressful and hard part about this moving process is not being able to have all the foods in the home that I would normally have like frozen veggies, tons of fruits, and other healthy ingredients for delicious meals.  We’ve been trying to have easier meals on hand so we can pack up dishes and pots and pans.  A lot of the easier meals are the frozen family dinners in a bag or Mac & Cheese.  They are very good and good to have once in a while (in my eyes) but I know they are high in sodium and some of the ingredients aren’t the greatest.  I keep reminding myself that this is only temporarily and soon I will be able to cook our favorite healthy meals in our new home. I would take some pictures of the HUGE mess going on in the home or some food we have but I had packed my sweet camera.  The joys of moving and soon unpacking.  Thank goodness for Google Images.

Take Care and God Bless

~Angela

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Surprise, Surprise, Surprise!!

Here’s a little back story, before summer had started I had joined the Beach Body team and started my first program as a coach, 80 Day Obsession.  I LOVED IT!!! I completed 2.5 weeks of the program and was kicking some booty but almost towards week 3 I started to feel in the morning and would have to hit pause multiple times throughout the work out which wasn’t me and was hard for me to make myself take the break I needed so I wouldn’t vomit all over the floor.  I know icky!

Well when week 2 of feeling nausea hit I knew something wasn’t right and noticed I had missed my “time of the month” and millions of thoughts went through my head. “Ah shit did I lose to much weight and f***ed stuff up”,  I was told a week before I had lost too much weight so that’s why that thought came rumbling in.  Then the light bulb came on and I remembered we haven’t been preventing pregnancy.  I dug out a test that I purchased a month or two back when we decided to stop preventing, I was about to open it, but I stopped myself and chose to wait a few more days just in cause my “time of the month” would appear.  A few more days went by and I got the balls to finally take the test and I saw two beautiful blue lines, PREGNANT!  Excitement and joy ran through my veins and ran in by my hubs who was still sleeping and woke his ass up to share the news.  Needles to say he didn’t know what the hell was going on and then it sank in.

As the weeks went by and moving along in the pregnancy I became sooo sick and actually lost 15 pounds and had to make a trip in to the doctors office to get an iv put in and receive some fluids.  I tried some home remedies that the nurses gave me but nothing helped until I was finally put on some medication to stop the constant vomiting and nausea.  I finally started to feel like a myself again without having to take the meds around 14 weeks and life has been great.

I’m currently 18 weeks pregnant (5 months) and in two weeks we get to found out if baby is a boy or a girl.  I have been struggling with eating fruits and veggies which I normally love but my body or the baby just doesn’t want them.  I have to be in the mood for them but something my body or baby craves a lot is Doritos!  I love them and they have saved me many times in this pregnancy by making me feel better.

We are in the progress of selling our home and moving to the family farm house which is closer to most our family minus a few.  The selling of our home happened so fast its crazy, our home was on the market for one whole day and we had seven showings and 4 offers by the end of the day.  That was the longest day of my life and a pretty emotional day.  Oh and I am currently enrolled in a class that looks to be a wee bite challenging but it will be fun.

Take Care and God Bless

~Angela

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Favorite top 10 Movies

I’m the type of person who likes noise in the background when doing anything from cleaning to homework.  Noise in the background oddly keeps me focused on what I’m doing.  Is anyone else like this???  So growing up and even into my mid twenties I would play/watch movies from sun up tell sun down.  A lot of them where my favorite movies and some where movies I was watching for the first time.  I would even play my favorite movies to help me fall asleep.  Sense my husband switched to a different work shift and goes to bed before I do, I haven’t fallen asleep to my favorite movies in a long time.

Here we go, my top 10 favorite movies are…….

*First Blood

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From Google Images

*First Blood; part two……ALL TIME FAVORITE

*First Blood; part 3

*Steel Magnolias

*Dirty Dancing

*You’ve Got Mail

*G.I Jane

*Justice League

*Batman; Dark Knight Raises

*Moana

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From Google Images

Take Care and Gob Bless,

~Angela

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