This week is a busy week for me, I am working at all three of my jobs this week and their not all in Dale. I have a lot of driving to due but well worth it. Last night after we ate dinner, I was sitting on the floor with Dominic playing with trucks and then he left me and went to play with his Daddy. Those two laughing together is the best sound in the world and I could listen to it all day long. So, I was sitting in the kitchen alone checking my Facebook page and came across the last video that Brittany Manurd posted on Youtube. I was watching I of course started to cry right away. She then started speaking about a series of seizures that she had in one day and how at the end of them she was looking at her husband and knew it was him but couldn’t think of his name. That statement broke my heart and I began to cry even more. I felt bad for her because no one should have that feeling no matter their age and I would with individuals who have been diagnosed with Dementia or Alzheimer and one particular lady tell’s me regularly that this isn’t they way she planned to die. She didn’t plan to die not being able to recognize her family or husband. We often think that if people don’t look like they are sick then they are really not sick but that’s not the case. Her can be physically in good shape but your mind could be falling apart or you organs could be falling apart. “Never judge a book by it’s cover” and this little quote relates so will to people.
After watching Brittany video I sat on the floor for some time and thought about all the obstacles that I have over come in my life from small to big and thought about her I don’t even have the amount of strength that she has and bravery. I also began thinking about how we as a society often focus on the materialistic things in our life or our daily chores and jobs that we need to take care of. I don’t think we really step back and look at or life as much as we should. Our lives yes a filled with some pretty negative parts but hell it is also full of wonderful parts too. I looked around my dinner room/kitchen and I’m thankful for the stuff in it i.e fridge, stove, water, and food but I am truly thankful for Timothy and Dominic. With out those to guys my life would be boring and probably not has busy lol.
Brittany has helped me realize what I want out of my life and how I am for sure not going to let an eating disorder take over and ruin the wonderful life that I am living. I am going to work harder each and every day to make good choices for myself and for my family. Those choices include not stressing over the little stuff that truly in the end doesn’t even matter. To be well balanced mentally, physically, spiritually, and emotionally. To enjoy every day like it is my last and to spend as much time as I can with Dominic and Tim.